I'm feeling a little bit homesick right now and it's got me thinking, "Is this a time when I'm supposed to hang on or let things go and accept change?" I don't really think the answer is black and white but then again, I don't know what the answer is at all.
I am loving things here. I love my church, I love the friends I'm making and I'm getting to experience lots of great things. But I'm also starting to feel more removed from my friends and community in Cincinnati. I miss Echo, I miss hanging out with my friends and talking to them on the phone. I miss spending time with my family [although the webcam helps with that some]. Is it possible to invest in settling here and making new friends and a new community and still maintain things at home? I think it really just means that things will be different but I'm not quite ready to accept that yet. I want to expand my circle of friendships and community without things changing. I realize I'm re-hashing a classic problem in life but it's how I'm feeling right now. I can't hang on too tightly but completely letting go isn't the answer either. If anyone has the secret formula I'd love to know it, but I doubt it exists.
I think maybe a problem with my blog is that it acts as incomplete communication. I tell lots of people how things are going but I don't really get to talk to them and I don't hear what's going on in their lives. That is what I miss. I might experiment with stopping the blog for awhile to see if I can find a better way to communicate that is a little more fulfilling.
Sunday, February 25, 2007
Hang on or let go?
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A blog is an incomplete form of communication and definitely won't satisfy your desire to fully communicate with your friends and family back in Ohio. It isn't designed to be that. A blog is more a way to share things that are going on your life or express various opinions you have on issues. It also enables you to get feedback on the things you share or issues you express though that feedback is limited. You can't have an in-depth conversation with someone on a blog.
It sounds like you miss the intimacy you had previously with your friends and family. I think that's the tradeoff you're going to pay for the new experiences and friends you're having and making in London. I don't you'll be able to overcome the problem of being over 3,000 miles away. You could call them everyday BUT you still won't be THERE. If it is a serious issue with you, you can take heart in that your assignment in London is only 2 years. That may seem a long time but it isn't. In fact, in no time, you'll have to pack your belongings and return to Ohio. I would say do the best you can to stay in touch with those you love and care about in Ohio and know that in time, you'll be able to be with them again. Enjoy the new experiences and friends you're having in London as they're a blessing and shouldn't be wasted or missed because of homesickness.
I hope this helps. Cheers!
I agree with Ditto- i wouldn't beat yourself up over thinking that you're changing and you're friends back here changing so much will readically altar life when you return. It won't. You'll just have so much more to talk baout and catch up on and you'll think back to the time you had in London and think "HOLY CRAP! How did it all fly by so fast and why did I worry?" Being homesick is natural. It will come and go like a rollercoaster but it will come less after the first year. Just enjoy the heck out of your time. It's fading!
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